I'm back in Bangalore. I should be happy, right? Well, guess what? I am not. It's not that I miss Pune or anything. It's just depressing to know that I'm not the same happy person that I used to be. I'm not happy in any place. CLAT changed my life. It so bloody has. All I can think of now is CLAT10, and nothing else. I should have made it last year , right? I dunno what went wrong. I just don't. I HAVE to work hard. I've given enough trouble to my parents already. My mother thinks I WILL make it this year. How I wish I was that optimistic. I don't take part in any of the activities in my college. I don't like my college. I don't like the people who I thought were/are my friends. Am I a bitchy hypocrite? Well, maybe I am.

The whole moving-on-with-your-life thing is so difficult. Why exactly didn't I work hard enough? I have no answer for it. Was I over-confident? Or as Teju puts it, I'd given up. Had I really? Did I really give up that easily? I would not like to believe it,although I know that there's an amount of truth in it.

I'm a depressed, irritated, frustrated person. When will I EVER get back to normal?